我不看愛情小說
只有一次戀愛經驗
對談戀愛可真沒什麼研究
最近 已經受過失戀的挫折
別人看我可能覺得我沒什麼
但我想說
我痛過,傷過,不捨過, 哭過... ...
我不讓別人看我的淚水
是因為我知道別人看了
可能會為我抹乾眼淚
但要眼淚不再流出來
還是要靠自己
如果相戀是為了跟你信任的人學習相處
那麼分手是為了學習面對,學習獨立吧?
我花了好一段時間
才讓自己冷靜下來
好好地回望一下
到今天我還未明白他的沉默
但想深一點
他的沉默
可能令我好過一點
曾經在考試前想過今年的暑假
不知道會怎樣過
不知道會怎樣寂寞
但最後
我還是過得很好
聽到朋友們的愛情故事
再走入她們的故事
有一刻
我差點以為我自己是愛情專家
給意見 做決定
但事情發展下去
我便知道
我不是
我甚至質疑我懂不懂得去愛
不懂不打緊
我可以用我餘下的人生去學
但我不想再扮專家
我怕我錯得一蹋糊塗
害了人
我不是白姐姐
不是愛情專家
其實我跟很多人一樣
只是一隻受過傷的迷途羔羊
如果還有人有興趣跟我分享她的愛情故事
我能告訴你的事只有一個
天下間的愛不只是愛情
不如意的時候,看開點吧
3 comments:
honey~
I am sorry... I know u dun hate me, but u hate to see me like this! but the point is I have too much time to think and to waste...
I know it sounds stupid, but I m not doing anything to pull myself out~ it's bcos i think i deserve wt i get 2day... ur diff, u did not make a mistake! it's a mistake i will regret for da rest of my life~
I m jus trying to figure things out n get wt my heart truly lies... it's not as easy to let go as u think, bcos i m not tht kind of person, and above all, i still hv FEELINGS for "it"~ may it b da person or da whole relationship thing...
I m sorry, i reli m sorry for causing u trouble, n making u worried n all... i know one sorry is not enff, and i dun want this thing to ruin our frdship~ u hv done much more thn a great frd wud hope for, i see tht u care n love me!! i reli do!! Altho i said tht other ppl only add up to 10% and "it" is 90% to me, u r still reli important... I'll try to open more and let u n other ppl love me~~~
I know, ok, tht u think not letting go is a silly decision, but i reli can't, at least not for a while... i can only try to think less, but look ahead... but thn u said i shud not b too hopeful, i'll try not to~ i promise! i'll keep a little sense in mind*
I love u... altho u'll never end up in a situation like this, i wud do da same to support... likewise, i may also said it's better to gv up if i m in ur position, but as da person in da boat, i know it's not jus a fact of letting go... there's too much to treasure, and afterall, there's still brightness n sunshine i m longing for... it's not da edge of a cliff to me, at least not tht i can see now!
I asked u if there's chance to reassure myself, but i know it's useless... wt if the entire world tells me there is no chance, i wud still do wt i m doing now~ bcos otherwise i will regret for da rest of my life... i dun want to feel regretful again, i hv already done sth tht i will regret for da rest of my life!
I will promise u, i will love myself more n not tlk abt killing myself or anything in da near future... not to scare u, ok?? But at this moment, wt i need is support from frds (not family in tht sense, bcos they dunno my decision), i jus need u to support me for wteva decision i made... until one day when u find i hv gone too far, thn u can pull me bk~~~~ i NEED u!!!!!
'天下間的愛不只是愛情'
同意呀
卻不容易看到...
支持你!
love u!:)
愛情と言うものは本当に難しいだな。ですが、苦しみを耐えたら、いい男が彼になるかもしれないな。とにかく、早く元気になりなさい！Adaさん。
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